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Sister Julienne bit down on her hand to keep the cry from leaving her throat. She can love, but she can never allow herself to be loved. Not the way other women can. Especially not by another woman.
She can see it in Phyllis' eyes that she felt the same way about her. It's why she tried not to gaze in them too long. Most days Sister Julienne could bear it. Loving someone but not allowing them to love them to love you back.
But today it is too much. Today she wanted to cry and ask God why he would do this to her.