Sunset ^beta

It was uncomfortable. Watching Koyomi standing with others, that is. Lilja wasn't prone to the weird sensation in her chest. The prickling feeling there would be pain enough to make her frown a little. It was ugly. It was a side of herself that she hardly was aware of.

Lilja wanted to take it away. Like she did with her other unwanted parts that were pretty either. But how could she? The Kurtbay hardly understood where it came from. Ignore it, then. She was lucky, since it worked; the uneasy feeling tended to fade over time, was what she realized.

Good. Maybe she could work with it. Until Lilja couldn't.

Since Ramo entered Giganza, it didn't want to go away. Why? It was confusing. She liked the German girl, enjoyed her company and attention… So what was making her skin crawl when she saw the other with Koyomi? The Kurtbay didn't understand.

She tried to. One thing for sure, it wasn't about their lack of beauty. They were actually very pretty; albeit a little modest. If Lilja had her way, they could be even more pretty. They would shine so much, she would need to think about having a competition, a rival. It would be thrilling. Could she go higher in terms of beautifulness than now, if there was someone to compete with? 

It was a nice thought to have. Maybe she should force her way. Sometimes. If the opportunity arises, why not?

And that is how she tried to make them into a better version of themselves. They weren't really interested, too comfortable in their ways. What was a little bit of skin in the open if it made the view absolutely gorgeous to look at? Sadly, she was rejected a lot of times. One thing that stuck out to her, though. She didn't mind if Ramo was embarrassed to try it, the Kurtbay was sure the other could change her mind in the future.

But. Every time that Koyomi had declined her advances… It hurted. She didn't show it, obviously. It would not be pretty to look sad over a rejection. Still felt like her heart was being crushed inside her chest. Probably that was the reason why she found her answer when observing the Senju talking to Ramo. Something about the way her face glowed red because of something that the German said… I could make you look prettier. Just being by my side.  

At the same time that she welcomed the thought… her mind got blank. Was this her true feeling? The origin of that weird, unwanted and ugly emotion? If so… It makes sense. Lilja knows about the potential Koyomi has. She doesn't want it to be wasted. And it was always interesting to discover the other faces she could make when teased.

Decided, the Kurtbay knew what to do. Now, it's plan time. Since she felt what rejection is like, she needs to be on her best to make sure to avoid it; and also, to make Koyomi feel bad for turning her down, if this ever happens.

And nothing could have saved the Senju from her. When Lilja got her alone, she attacked. Maybe she used her sense a little? Doesn't remember. She did put the other against the wall just by having her face real close, almost sharing the air. (If it was her, she wouldn't mind.)

“I need you. By my side.” The Kurtbay started to say, cutting off Koyomi's questions. She saw the red slowly appear on her skin, the shy expression taking control of her face. It was beautiful. “I can be the prettiest when you're close to me. Please, be part of Lilja's wardrobe.”

“Wha-what?” Oh, the crimson looked good on her. It looked like her eyes were shining. Her lips seemed to tremble a little, which she could understand. Being close to such a beauty in full power could be a little overwhelming.

Not wanting to lose the opportunity, Lilja kissed her. Maybe that way she would take away the questions on her mind. On her part, the Kurtbay could say that doing it made her feel very powerful. There was a tingling on her chest. An itching on her skin. A sweetness on her mouth.

An amount of good feelings.

“Oh…” Koyomi looked a little dazed. Should she go grab a bottle of water? It wouldn't be weird if she overheated, her face was looking deliciously pretty in that shade of her.

Lilja couldn't help. She let out a little giggle.

“Then… When you asked me to be part of your wardrobe… Does… Would it be presumptuous to assume you have feelings for me?” The Senju looked at her with an unknown sparkle in her eyes. The Kurtbay tilted her head a little, not really thinking.

“... I guess…?” 

Surprise spread over Koyomi's features before being exchanged for an aggravated expression. It was fascinating how she still looked beautiful even like that.

“You guess?”

“Does it matter?” Lilja asked, indifferent. “Is it not enough that I want you?”

Despiste blushing again, Senju retorted, “And what does it entail in our relationship?”

A soft smile graced the Kurtbay's lips.

“For me to answer that. We need to go to my room.” 

“Do we, now?” The suspiciousness was very evident in Koyomi's voice.

“Yes. Since you're always so modest… How could we take off our clothes outside the school?”

“Taking off our clothes?!”

“We will know better about our feelings when there is nothing to hide. That's how we will know what it entails about our relationship.”

“I decline!” Koyomi asserted, looking the other way while holding her hands in front of her body. The strength in her grasp looked hurtful, so Lilja layed her palms in them, trying to make the other relax the tension there.

She ignored the stab of pain on her chest, knowing that her answer has yet to come.

“Don't hold your hands like that.” The Kurtbay reprime, softly. “It could hurt the skin and make it look bad.”

Since she was already touching, Lilja started to massage it with her thumbs. It would be better if she hand cream, the hardness would go away for sure.

“Perhaps… instead of going to your room… we could go to this theater museum that opened recently…” The shy voice of Koyomi made her look from the hands to the flustered face in front of her. It took a little, but the Kurtbay soon processed what she heard.

“But how would we take our clothes off there…?” 

“We will not!” The Senju unclasped her palms, making Lilja let go of it in the process. “It is not really necessary to take your clothes off to better know someone…! Just talking will be sufficient.”

“Hmm…” She hummed, not trustful.

“Then… shall we go on a date first?” The Kurtbay felt the softness of the other skin again when her hand was grabbed, their fingers interlocked. Koyomi was looking again at her with that unknown sparkle on her eyes, and a tiny smile was adorning her pretty rosy lips.

To her… Lilja didn't know if a date would help. Even so. There was one only answer she could give right now.

“Yes… we shall.”